Incredibly Anxious

I feel incredibly anxious as the commencement date of radiation is rapidly approaching.  I feel like I’d rather endure 100 brain surgeries than this radiation treatment.  The 3 radiation doctors have been all over the map about potential side effects and I hate that this treatment is ineffective 30% of the time against the type of cancer Jude has been battling.  I don’t want to go through with this!