I really thought I was doing a great job shielding Jude from the knowledge of his life-threatening medical condition. I thought he only knew that he had a head owie (which he also knows is called a brain tumor) and that it has to get taken out since it had come back.  But, he knows more than I thought.
Last night when I was laying down with him to help him fall asleep, he told me, “You know that people can die of brain tumors.” I then pretended to be clueless and asked him what he meant and he said, “If you don’t take them out, they keep growing and growing and pretty soon you can’t think and when you can’t think, you die.”Â
I don’t think he thinks he’s going to die since he knows his tumor is coming out, but he did express concern that the tumor is just going to keep coming back. I then told him that we would just have to pray to God that He would take away the head owie for good. Jude started giggling with excitement when we discussed how God can do anything. God can fix a head owie without surgery or God can fix a head owie with surgery.Â
I found it a little troubling that Jude then wanted to talk about what heaven is like. I kept trying to end the conversation and go to bed, but he kept saying, “Tell me more about heaven.”  I finally cut him off after about 30 minutes at 11:30 p.m.