I feel like I’m too busy to think and really process what we’ve been through/are going through with Jude. Maybe I deal with it by not dealing with it. Maybe we just take it a day at a time. Maybe I have dealt with it and don’t know it. I’m just not sure how we’ve held up so well. Maybe it’s because Andy and I know (without even really thinking about it) that God is in control here and that ultimately, everything will work out according to God’s master plan and who are we to judge that? Maybe we’ve dealt with this so well because we have lost another child (the one who was born a couple years after Jude) and we saw how God used that for the best, giving us little Levi instead and giving us a chance to witness first hand and share that a baby is a baby no matter how small he/she is. But, when I do get a minute to think, I can’t help but be struck with gratitude. When the doctor delivered the devastating news on November 21st, 2010 that our precious 3-1/2 year old had brain cancer, we really thought it was a death sentence. In that moment, we never would have expected to still have Jude with us almost 2 years later (let alone that he would be thriving). We still don’t know what the future holds for our little Jude, but we cherish each day that God gives us to spend with him.